Leg 2 is almost… almost done. I think … but then I have thought that before – and Leg 3 starts next week. *Sigh*
In general things are looking up. I have been feeling better anyway. I wanted to write again, mostly to just let you know I am doing better. This last month or so has been a little rough.
I had an epiphany today. Maybe when one has a deadly disease, it maybe is okay to not feel great some days, even when you think you should be okay. I don’t feel good today. I wish I could have gone to church, but I just didn’t have the energy for it. We had a big day yesterday and I didn’t sleep well last night. This seems like it should be recoverable much more easily then it is for me today. But, as I thought about it, my body is carrying, even nourishing, something evil and bad. I have had a lot going on and have been under a significant amount of stress lately. Should I really be surprised that if I overdo, maybe my body can’t handle that so well right now? So, I am giving myself permission to feel yucky today. But I feel like I need to give an update, and I am hoping that it might make me feel better too. So here is what’s been going on the last couple of weeks: Continue reading “Leg 2 A Mixed Bag”
How does one get through a day like this? It started with me in fear of my own future as I looked forward to my first oncologist appointment. The middle of the day was great as I celebrated the encouraging news about my own future. Then…then…came the heartbreak…the call from her brother – his big sister, my oldest friend, had been hit by a car that afternoon – and had passed away.
The only thing I know to do now- is to try to share with you, who this woman was to me…. Continue reading “Ode to Lori – My Trusted Friend”
The Next Chapter
I never thought I would look forward to an appointment with an Oncologist. I hoped I would never have to SEE an Oncologist. Funny how perspective changes with your circumstance. I looked forward to this visit because I knew it was where I would get answers, it was where I could start my fight.
So, to back up a little. I had my CT scan. The results from that were not great, but not terrible either. The lymph glands around my colon were a little enlarged. Could be a problem, maybe not. Still, everything seems localized, so mostly good news. Continue reading “Second Leg”
Where the Rubber Meets the Road
When I first heard that I had cancer, one of my first thoughts was anger at God. I mean really God, I’ve been praying for a rest! We’ve had enough of life’s little challenges lately! A moment later though, I thought – “If I walk away from God – from my faith, now – what else do I have?” I quickly realized that without my faith in God and my belief that He has my back, He is with me, He loves me – then I would have no hope at all and nothing to support me through this journey. Faith is not about the good, easy times – it’s all about the rough, hard times. This is where the rubber meets the road and you either got it – or you don’t. Continue reading “Where the Rubber Meets the Road”
